looking back on 2019 ✨

Sunday, December 29, 2019

Another year has passed and I’m looking back on 2019 just briefly. A glance over the shoulder, so to say.

2019 has been a good year for me. I feel lucky and grateful and also proud. There have been a lot of firsts and I did quite a few things that scared me and would have been easy to avoid or wiggle out of, but instead I just did them anyway. And, as so often the case, they turned out not be so scary after all.

I feel lucky and grateful because I was able to do quite a bit of traveling this year. For work as well as for pleasure. Turns out, spending money on experiences makes me much happier than spending money on ~ things ~ . Again, not surprising at all, I know. 

I worked on saying no this past year and actually did say no to a lot of things and people, which in turn created time and space for opportunities I wanted to say yes to.

Being unapologetic goes hand in hand with the saying no part. Both are like a muscle you can train and it gets easier and easier the more you do it.

Another thing I managed to accomplish (which might seem small, but it did a lot for me) is ban my phone from my bed. No more scrolling before getting up or going to sleep. Highly recommend!

Some weird ”I don’t deserve happiness and the best of the best” kind of thinking that seems to be ingrained in my mind makes me believe that, since I had quite a good year, the next is probably going to be not so good. Just for balance’s sake and to keep me humble. I might have come to that ~ logic ~ because in the past couple of years, whenever I felt safe and good about my life, something horrible was waiting around the next corner. Life will always have its ups and downs, but … could we possibly steer clear of the major, existential, life-and-death type of catastrophes? Please? 

Okay. That’s all I have. Before I go off galavanting into 2020, here are a few things, books etc. I really enjoyed and have been a highlight of my 2019.

+ + + m o s t    w o r n + + +

Starting out with something that might seem kind of anticlimactic: a bike helmet. I got it for Christmas last year and it has been my most worn item, I kid you not. I don't know what I did without it. I couldn’t go back to not wearing one anymore. Getting on my bike without my helmet would feel like riding my bike without any pants on.

+ + + t h r e e  f o u r  b o o k s + + +

I wanted to narrow it down to three books but couldn’t. I read over 50 books this year and it was incredible to prioritise reading. Less scrolling, more reading is going to be my motto for 2020 as well.
Anyways, these are the three four books I enjoyed most this year:
My Best Friend’s Exorcism by Grady Hendrix / Becoming by Michelle Obama / My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Ottessa Moshfegh / Conversations with Friends by Sally Rooney

+ + + a  m o v i e + + +

I’ve seen a lot of movies throughout the year, but Booksmart definitely stood out. There are some unexpected turns in it, so I won’t go into it at all and just encourage you to watch it, should you not have seen it already.

+ + + a  p o d c a s t + + +

The best (newly discovered) podcast I’ve listened to throughout 2019 (and, to be precise, in the end of 2018 already as well) has been In the Dark by American Public Media.
In the Dark is an investigative podcast that reports on a different case each season. The second season deals with the case of Curtis Flowers: ”Curtis Flowers has been tried six times for the same crime. For more than 20 years, Flowers has maintained his innocence. He's won appeal after appeal, but every time, the prosecutor just tries the case again. What does the evidence reveal? And why does the justice system ignore the prosecutor's record and keep Flowers on death row?”

+ + + a  t r i p + + +

Our trip the the Pacific Northwest has been the absolute highlight of my year. I’d wanted to go there for years and it was even better than I could have imagined. Just thinking about it makes my heart feel all warm and fuzzy and full of life and joy and oh, take me back now!

I hope you had a good year – may the next one be even better!

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